Update

Just a bulk update of the last few weeks:



Hi Guys, thanks Bec for your updates. I am sick, but I am not sure why. I have a feeling that I am sick from hunger but I can't eat anything, and I think that might be in my head. I have been trying to get some water in today because I am getting dehydrated again, and I have just thrown that all up Dad has his nurse friend coming over for a few days, A isn't going to be happy about that, but he's trying to help and I appreciate that. So we'll see if she can make me better!


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Last text said "On oxygen and drip, waiting to get blood test results, then might be transferred to sunnybank under my surgeon to check for a leak" They should have checked for that when she was there on tuesday night the bastards

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Well apparently its all my fault because I haven't been taking my nexim regularly. Mind you he didn't give me any when I checked out. So he has been in this morning and told me off and belittled me, made me feel like a hypocondriact. But good news is I have managed some apple juice without the dry wretch. And they think I should be going home tomorrow.

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Ok so I am home and finally back at work for a couple of hours this afternoon. Still not feeling 100% but feeling better! Got some new clothes this morning, I bought size 18 pants. The ones I had on were 22 and they were falling down!!Its been quite embarrassing being back at work, everyone keeps coming in and commenting on the loss. I must learn to take compliments. So finally I hope that I might be able to enjoy this, instead of wishing I could turn back time.

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***Jo - do not read this post (you hvae been warned ) ** Just having a whinge, and I am surrprised its taken me this long. I am 8 weeks out from surgery tomorrow, and I feel shite. I can't eat anything, and if I do its tiny tiny amounts. I hear "read" people talking about eating a saucer of food. I am lucky if I can eat 2 or 3 teaspoons. I am vomitting most days, no reason, just feel sick, and up it comes. I can drink fine, but food is a real issue. Surely my body can't survive on such little food. For example, yesterday I had a couple of sips of a hot choc, 1 cracker with vegimite and a sip of soup. I can't seem to find any information on why I feel a blockage in my throat. I think this blockage is whats causing me to be see. Its like when you poke your finger down your throat and you need to retch, like its just sitting there ready to make me spew!Food is such a huge part of your life and every single meal is affected by how I feel. We don't go out any where because I can't eat anything. I haven't got the energy just to cruise the shops. I have lost 20kg but I worry about it coming back when eventually I start to eat. **Little gap there where I went to be sick** I am just so over it, and somedays find myself wishing I had never done this to myself. On monday morning I will ring my surgeon and see if I can get in for some type of check up, I can't live like this.

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Finally I have an appointment tomorrow to have an endoscopy I have found another patient of the same surgeon, 3 weeks behind me that is having the same issues, so hopefully by me going in tomorrow I can get her questions answered too!

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Hi guys just checking in and updating how I went today.Had my endoscopy. He said there is a scratch in my throat that is healing, and there was food lodged in my throat, which he cleaned out. Asked me if I had eaten a passionfruit recently, I had kiwi fruit yesterday :LOL: So he could see where that had lodged! So After cleaning me out it feels soother, I don't feel like I need to be sick now, so obviously it was the food lodged in my throat that was sitting somewhere that was causing me to retch! My Dr was really nice today and I hope that now I can finally get some food in! I managed some chicken and vegies for dinner, so hopefully I might be on my way back!!

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Well I have had my check up with the surgeon this morning. We have upped my reflux meds for a week to see if that stops the nausea....on a positive these are my measurements Chest -13cmWaist -15cmHips -19cmUpper right arm -5cmUpper left arm -4.5cmright thigh -10.5cmleft thigh -10.5cmWeight loss 24.2kgTOTAL CM's LOST - 77.5!!!!

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5 weeks post op

5 weeks out, and 15kg down.But I am sick I don't really know why. I have been on reflux medication, and yesterday I read the side affects and it was nauesa, vomiting and diohreah. Der I have all of those since I started to take it. So I went to the Dr about the medication, and he gave me something else, but the chemist tells me its pretty much the same, so I have decided to stop taking anything and see if the reflux is gone, Its supposed to have settled down within 6 weeks. So I will wait and see if its gone before I start taking anything else.I think I am sick from being hungry, you know when you feel sick, you don't eat then you feel sick from hunger? And I can't force anything down. I am begining to think that its all in my head I just feel so terrible, all the time. Every morning, I have to throw up, at least once, I have constant nausea. Its making the 15kg I have lost not be impressive cause its too hard to get excited about anything. I just want to feel better

1 month post op

1 month yesterday since surgery. I have hit 13.8kg loss!!I am struggling a bit with nausea. Can't get much down. If I didn't know better I'd think I was pregnant, one nice run to the bathroom as soon as I get to work and then I am all right to go!I feel sick everytime I go to eat something, and because I don't feel like it I just don't eat. so my goal this week is to eat more.

Yesterday I ate
A few sips of coffee
A couple of teaspoons of weetbix
A couple of teaspoons of youghurt
A few sips of cuppa soup
And a few spoons of chicken pasta
125 ml of cordial

My dietitian wants me to eat
Porridge/weetbix for breakfast
1/2 an up and go m/tea
Meat and vegies for lunch
1/2 an up and go a/teameat
and vegies for dinner
apple and lite custard for desert
And a litre of water!
Ummm yeah good luck with that!!

So its been tough, by no means easy, but I can't believe that I have lost nearly 14kg in about 6 weeks! I would never have thought that possible!I can't really see except for my face that I have lost weight, but the girls at work are noticing it from other places. Maybe when I buy some clothes in smaller sizes and cuts I will notice more.

Maybe a cause to my feeling sick?

I think I have discovered what might be making me sick. I have been dr googling this morning after someone mentioned to me that it might be the reflux that is making me sick.

Less Common SymptomsMany patients with GERD do not experience heartburn or
regurgitation. Instead symptoms may appear in other locations.
Chest
Sensations or Pain. Patients may have the sensation that food is trapped
behind the breastbone. Chest pain is a common symptom of GERD. It is
very important to differentiate it from chest pain caused by heart conditions,
such as angina and heart attack.
Symptoms in the Throat. Less commonly, GERD
may produce symptoms that occur in the throat:
Acid laryngitis. A condition
that includes hoarseness, dry cough, the sensation of having a lump in the
throat, and the need to repeatedly clear the throat. Trouble swallowing
(dysphagia). In severe cases, patients may even choke or food may
become trapped in the esophagus, causing severe chest pain. This may indicate a
temporary spasm that narrows the tube, or it could also be an indication of
serious esophageal damage or abnormalities. Chronic sore throat. Persistent
hiccups. Coughing and Respiratory Symptoms. Asthmatic symptoms like coughing and
wheezing may occur. In fact, in one study, GERD alone accounted for 41.1% of
cases of chronic cough in nonsmoking patients. The incidence was even higher
when GERD and asthma were combined.
Chronic Nausea and
Vomiting. Nausea that persists for weeks or even months and is not
attributable to a common cause of stomach upset may be a symptom of acid
reflux. In rare cases, vomiting can occur as often as once a day. All
other causes of chronic nausea and vomiting should be ruled out, including
ulcers, stomach cancer, obstruction, and pancreas or gallbladder disorders

I have bolded my symptoms. I have got reflux meds, I just forget to take them, so they will be my new religion and see if I can get rid of this feeling sick. Because I feel sick I don't eat anything, and I am really struggling at work cause I haven't got the energy to stay awake!

Its finally moving!!

Well the loss has finally started to happen. Today I have hit 11.2kg down! I just wish I was feeling better! I have maybe been a bit generous when it comes to food. I have been eating things that aren't mashed. I have been eating spag bol and stuff like that. Goes down fine, but for the last few days I have been feeling sick, which doesn't really make me want to eat, so its not really any wonder that I am losing weight. Just have to make sure to keep up my berocca and multi vitamin so that my body gets what it needs. So today I am back onto runny stuff. I have been advised that I might be feeling sick because I am pushing it, so I am going to go back a step and see if that makes me feel better.I have an appointment on the 20th with the surgeon for a follow up and his assistant took my cm measurements, so I will be interested to see how many cm's I've lost. Bec says she can see it on my body, I can only see it on my face and my shoulder blades at the moment. I haven't seen my best friend since before the surgery and I am kind of holding off seeing her cause I'd love for her to notice a big difference!!!Anyway thats where I am at, off to find something runny for breakfast!!

Updated photo, this is about 2 months apart.

Big goal!!!

Sorry its been so long since I gave an update. Its now 3 weeks since I had the op. I can drink fairly well, just have to take sips rather than gulps. I can get through a whole youghurt. I am still on mush, thats just for another week. I can get through a coffee now too. The girls at my local coffee shop were suprised when I ordered a mini instead of my usual maxi! So I had to tell them about my surgery.
I got ambitious yesterday and ordered grilled fish for lunch, thinking that it would just fall apart, but it was cooked in an egg wash, so I ate two bites and had to ignore the rest. I really thought I was going to be sick there in the middle of the resturant, got up walked around, and it was ok!
Mum asked me if it was worth it, well today I have hit my second mini goal, I am 10.2kg down!! Does that make it seem worth it??!! I think so!!
My scars are healing up quite well, the one I was concerned about seems to be ok now.
So onward an upward to the next goal!!

I feel like I have hit a wall today. I haven't lost any weight for 3 days, and today I put on 200grams. How the hell does that happen?? I wonder if I have sent my body into starvation mode because I just don't feel the need to eat. So I am only eating 3 times a day, where as it should be 6 times. I have tried to up my water intake. Thats tough when you are supposed to eat 6 times a day, and not drink 10 minutes prior or 1/2 an hour after a meal!
I haven't done any exercise yet. I am using the excuse that my tummy is still too sore, but I know its not! I might take Sarah and her bike down the coast tomorrow and she can ride and I'll walk along side her. Might see if mum wants to come with us. I have said I will up my food intake and today I have only managed 1/2 a shake and its 10am. Not going so smoothly yet!!

Lastnight I had some blended chicken and vegies, was really looking forward to it, but I think I must have picked while I was blending it. Sat on the couch to eat dinner, hands went clammy, felt sick, did the bolt and I threw up. First time since being in hospital, I think I must have picked more than I thought and not chewed it properly.

So my goal, drink more water and eat more, and hopefully I will see some results! Not to lose site of the fact that I have lost 9kg in 22days. But when it falls off like that and it stops its hard not to be disappointed!

11 days post op!

Ok so my weight has stayed fairly static. 9kg loss and no more. I wondered if maybe I am putting myself into starvation mode? So today I am making an effort to up my food intake. I have also bought some liquid vitamins and some protein powder, so that I can up both of those things. I have found out that protein assists with healing so I will pop that on any food I can to up it.

I have had issues with reflux, seems thankfully that the medication the dr gave me is working! Woo Hoo, I pity those that suffer from reflux or heartburn. Its terrible!

I have started to use bio-oil on my scars, spoke to the lady at the health food shop, she said it was ok to put them on as long as they had sealed. So I have started that today.

I am still feeling hungry, I am not sure if its just growling or actual hunger. Thats why I decided to up my food intake to see if I can remedy that.

My water intake isn't as good as it should be but I am working on that, I suppose I should start to exercise soon too.

8 days post op

Ok won't be as lazy as I was last post, I will write this instead of copy and pasting!!

Surgery wise things are going good. I have one particular incision that is causing me a bit of pain, so I took the bandages off and had a look and it looked terrible! So on the way home from work yesterday I bought some more steri-strips. Got home jumped straight into the shower thinking that the water would loosen the ones that weren't already falling off, wrong. So I started to peel them off and I split the scar on my belly button **Cry** Ouch, made me feel sick, and due to the dynamics at home at the moment, I had to do it on my own. So I did it, and then had to sit down because I felt exhausted. I have a really sore back at the moment too.

I am feeling a bit down today, could be whats going on at home (or whats not more to the point), or the fact that I get to work and my brother has blocked my husbands emails from coming through. With what is going on at home at the moment, that's all I need, for him to think I have blocked him. And more to the point WTF does he think even touching my email. I am 100%certain he gets personal emails on his work email, apart from the fact that he has organised building his new house during work for the last 8 or so months. Hypocrite. Makes me so angry.

Anyway that was a depressing blog! My day can only get better from here, surely?

I am 5 days post surgery

I am going to copy and paste some stuff in here cause my head still doesnt feel 100%!!
21.4.2009
Hi guys, just checking in from my hospital bed! Feeling pretty sore and sorry for my self. I think I have been having reflux, which is what is making me the most uncomfortable. Haven't hS nything except water yet. Got mum to ring my Sarah and hold her off coming to visit till tonight, I was so out of it yesterday afternon.
Feeling heaps better todaya than yesterday, I love IV pain killers they rock.

And Jus, they took the paper undies when they gave me a sponge bath lastnight. They took any dignity I had too!

They gave me the option of going home today, but I will take advantage of having a choice and stay one more night.

Anyway just thought I'd say hi!!
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22.4.2009
Ok so today I am having a wtf have I done to myself day!! I feel really terrible. Can't get any sleep but i have to go home today because A has to go back to work tomorrow and I need to take Sarah to day care

I have only had about 300ml of water since monday morning, I am dying to gulp down a glass of water. I can't even stomach any mylanta. The have been giving me nexim injections for the reflux.

I will really try to eat some breakfast today, because I wonder if its also 'hunger'making me feel this bad.

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22.4.2009
Thank you all so much for your support. I must admit I might have underestimated the recovery. Bec has just been in to pick up Sarah, she is having a sleep over. I can't tell you how much my families support has meant to me, my brother even came and vistied yesterday and Mum was there when I woke up from the Op. Bec's been holding the office togethere and A has been great. Even following him getting 2 teeth pulled yesterday. We are like some silly head sore couple at the moment. I will get there, I have to I have no choice, this is not reversable, nor do I want it to be. Just getting through the next coouple of days is my first goal. The sleeve site I am on generally say you are back to normal about 1 week after surgery, 5 days to go.

Thank you all again x
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23/4/2009
Thanks girls, well after a good nights sleep I feel a lot better. I doubt that I would have been comfortable taking Sarah to daycare today, so I am so greatful that Bec took her for me.

Kirsty - You are right,I do need to drink more, I should be sipping to stave off dehydration. So I will start shortly.

I had a sustagen for breakfast, about 20ml! I can't believe that I could down that before without even thinking of it, now this one will last me 3 days!!

I have some good bruises on my legs from where they gave me my injections, took some photos of the damage whilst having a shower this morning.

I had to get off my arse and have a shower. I have a friend coming over She has had a lap band and she is off work sick, so thought she'd come and see me. She better not make me sick!

Anyway thats where I am at, thank you all for your thoughts. I am back to my surgery weight today, so tomorrow should show a loss!!!
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23.4.2009
Thanks again girls. Better to be safe than sorry. I can't believe that I am surviving on 1 ice block, 20mls of sustagen, and I am about to give some soup a go!

I should be drinking more water, but the gurgle is so weird. I don't get hunger pains but I do get the gurgle associated with hunger. So very strange!
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24.4.2009
Oh My God! Weighed in this morning I am down to 102kg!!!! Holy Hell!!

And I managed some porridge this morning!! Yay!!!

Yeah the bruises are from the anti blood clot injections, and they also gave me some anti nausea ones there too. They were actually painless to go in.

Re the up and go, I have only had sustagen so far, and that has lasted me 2 days, and hardly feels like I've even opened it. I have been a bit more experimental with volume today, so hopefully I will get through a popper soon! I have had some vitamin water, porridge and chicken soup. Have a bit of reflux, which is freaking horrible! I went out and about a bit today, I'm a bit slow, but getting there!

Had my dressings changed this morning, and the nurse said they are looking good. I don't have stiches just the steri strips.

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And thats where I am at the moment, its been slow, but will be well worth it!!

1 more sleep

I can't believe the time is finally here. I have lost 4.4kg since I started Optislim, which was 9 days ago. And I was thinking to myself that I could do this on my own, but I know I couldn't. Because without a person to be accountable to, I would eat something once that I shouldn't then continue to do the same until gradually the shakes and water are well and truley forgotten about. I am so excited & nervous about tomorrow!!! I can't believe that I am spending $7000+ on me, but I know at the end of the day it will be well and truley worth it!!

I am below my goal of 40kg to lose. I need to lose 38.4 to get to my goal weight!! I wonder how long it will take! I can't wait to have photos taken this christmas to compare to the last few years. 2 years ago I saw the photos from Christmas lunch and I cried. I can't believe that I let myself get so big. I can't even comprehend that there is the risk of becoming underweight!! I would have never ever thought that was even possible!!

I might not get on now till after my surgery, so next time I blog I will be 2/3 of a stomach down....hmm I wonder how much that weighs.... LMAO!!!

2 sleeps to go

Faced a pretty big test today. I went to a birthday party for my neice Olivia who has just turned 3. OMG, lolly bananas, cake, savaloys, crackers and dip, coke.... and I had a salad and a bottle of water! And I didnt feel deprived. I felt glad, because this morning I hit 104kg on the scales. Thats a loss of 3.8kg since friday week ago, so 8 days!!! I can't believe it! I feel so good.

I'm getting a bit nervous about the op now, its major surgery, who wouldn't. But I know that this is my life we are working on, I want to enjoy it.
My top reasons to lose weight in no particular order:

• To buy clothes from whatever shop I want
• To buy something because I like it, not because I like it the best out of what fits me.
• To go for a walk and enjoy it, not dread it
• To finally eat to live, not live to eat
• Bit of energy in bed wouldn't go astray either ;) (Sorry Mum)
• I don't want to be fat, and uncomfortable any more

I set my first mini goal at 100kg. But since that is only 4kg away, lets make it 95kg. Bring it on, I am so ready for this!!

5 sleeps to go!

Well another couple of days down and a couple of days closer. I had my booking in appointment at the hosptial this morning. They got me to fill in some forms gave me an EKG and some soap and told me to be there at 7am on Monday.

Sarah is looking forward to sleeping over at Pam's house on Sunday night. And the nurse told me today that I would only be in one night, so I might be home on Tuesday. Which she'll be happy about!

I am a bit apprehensive about only being in for one night. The pros to staying a couple more is that I get the IV pain killers and only have to lay there. At home I won't be able to help myself I will keep getting up to do stuff! And in hospital your "meals" are provided and I don't have to cook them!! I will request another night if I feel like I need it. I worry about there being a leak, and if I am in hospital they will catch that!

I haven't had anymore weightloss which is weird but its TTOM so hopefully I will get a nice surprise in a day or two. I am feeling good, really good. I haven't cheated and eaten anything I shouldn't have, except a small bake at home roll 3 days ago. And I didn't really need that, just did it because thats what I do and thats my problem!!

We have been flat out at work so I haven't really had a chance to think about being on a diet much, which is usually what I do, and I think about what I am missing out on!

So I am happy, and approaching this with excitement, I can't believe that this time in 12 or even 6 months I will look differently!!

Off to have a nicely warmed optifast, actually enjoying them now!

Day 4 - 6 to go!!

Well I am really struggling here today :(
Last night we went to the local RSL for dinner, I had vegies and the others had steak or fish and chips and pavlova for desert. I was so tempted to eat a chip or some fish, but I didn't and the will power it took made me feel like crying. :oops: I even picked up a chip to feel if it was crunchy :shock: After Bec and Jase and the kids had gone I told A how difficult that was, and he actually said, I am proud of you! I can't believe how deep my issues with food are if I nearly cry when I am forced to use my will power.
I am feeling water logged and I've only drunk about 1 litre, still another one to go!
I am feeling pretty happy with myself that I have stuck to this so well. I didn't have a taste of chocolate yesterday, was [i]hardly[/i] tempted Sarah got so much choc, and I know she'll forget about it and it will go in the cupboard to be thrown out before next easter Or added to the school raffel basket
I am down 2.4kg today, which is pretty amazing for 3 days!
This time next week I will be sleeved!!!

3rd day into pre-op

Well I am 3 days into my 10 day pre op and I have lost 2kg already!!! Must drink more water today!! I am at work so I thought it would be harder but we are busy and I am just about to have my first shake of the day.

I can't believe that I am 2kg down already!

Eight days to go!

Well its the end of day 2 on the shakes. And I dont think I have done too badly. It hought it would be harder being at home for the two days, but bother afternoons when I start to get hungry, I slept, so that filled in some time! :P I do have headaches too, they can be avoided by drinking more water which I havent done much of today!

I haven't really struggled as badly as I thought. I hope the fact that work is busy at the moment will help me fill the next 2 days in the office on my own! At least there is nothing to snack on there!
I did have a loss of 500g this morning, so hopefully will lose a couple of KG in the next 8 or so days.

I went shopping to get some of the meal replacement bars today, they want $20 for 6. I don't thinks so.

Bought myself some new grannie jammies for hospital today, I don't know how long I'll need them for,I guess the first day I will be in a hosptial gown, but I wanted something nice to wear afterwards.

A is asleep ATM so I just had to make a peanut butter sandwich for Sarah on fresh white bread!! Oh the temptation!!

So anyway day 2 mostly down, only 8 to go!!!

Last day of solid food - pre op!!

I met my dietitian last night. He is good, and he has put my mind at rest and given me a diet plan for pre and post op, which is helpful and will help me be more organised. That was one of the things I was dreading. When I don't eat, I panic and reach for a quick fix, so I will be super organised, and never feel like this isn't being done for a reason, I hope. He showed me a glass of what my stomach capasity will be like, its going to be 200ml. Says that I will struggle to drink half a diet shake. I can't even comprehend that!! Told me to start using little cups and plates. And to stop drinking 10 minutes prior to meals and 30 minutes after. Which will be hard, because I normally get through a glass of something while I eat!
So today is the last day that I will ever be able to eat normally (as I know it now) I will be sleeved in 11 days!! OMG!!
Yesterday Sarah climbed up on my lap and said to me, do you know why I like cuddling you mummy? And I said why? She said cause you're all soft! Well not for much longer!!
Lastnight when I put her to bed, she was talking about me going to hopsital, because we were told one night, but research tells me 2 or 3, so I was preparing her for the fact it will be longer than one night. She started to cry, so I told her that when I get home and start to feel better I will be happy to take her to the park for a ride, and I'll buy a bike so we can go riding together. She was so excited, and to tell you the truth, so am I!

2 days to go!!

2 days to go until I start on my 10 days of optifast. Funnily enough I am not dreading it. More like the fact that its just the start of my journey.

I have an appointment tonight with the dietitian, so hopefully he will give me some ideas on how to eat my vegi's for the next 10 days.

I want to be prepared and make sure that I don't have any excuse to slip. I want to do this right.

One of the guys at work has been telling me to go and make a pig of myself on Thursday night for dinner because its the last time I will be able to eat like that, but I don't want to. I need to shift my thinking about food to make this work.

I need to eat to live, not live to eat!

A great LOL cat!

Deposit paid!

Well I have just paid the $5000 deposit.
I have had a lot of operations (3 or 4) in my life, but I have never ever had to pay for them!!
I am actually looking forward to starting opitfast on Friday. 10 days of shakes for every meal, and 2 cups of vegies a day. I am going to start making some stirfry vegies in bulk for lunches and dinners, and I'd also like to make some soups for the first few days home after surgery.
I see the dietian on Wednesday. I am also looking forward to seeing him, apart from the fact that he sounds hot :signmuahaha: I am looking forward to some assistance on how to adapt to my new smaller tummy!
Its hard to explain to a four year old why mummy is going to hospital. This morning she said she will miss me, and she doesn't want me to go, and I tried in the best way possible to explain to her that this surgery will help me to be able to enjoy the future with her, to help me get fit enough to take her to the park willingly, and run along beside her when she rides her bike.

I have done a little bit of preop prep. Like buying soluble painkillers, de gas, to remove the gas they pump you up with, must get the suitcase out so I can add things as I think of them! Must put some music on my new ipod so I can take that with me too!

I am having a what the hell am I doing moment!

This is all moving so fast for me. I have been looking into banding for about 18 months. And when I went to see my surgeon he talked down banding and advised the sleeve. So that was on Monday the 30th of March. I am now booked for a sleeve on 20th April. Its all moving so quickly for me!! I keep questioning if this is the right thing for me. Am I taking the 'easy' way out. Removing part of my stomach terrifies me. Being non-reversable terrifies me, but is great because then I can't go back.
My surgeon hasn't organised councelling, which I thought they would.
I am baseing most of my journey on what I have witnessed with my banded friend, and its all being done fairly differently.
I have to organise care for my daughter while I am in hospital, I need to stock up on optifast, I need to get new Jammies, I need to get some de-gas. What else??? I have appointments with the nutritionist, pre op, I've had blood tests, wow what a huge 20 days this has turned out to be!

surgery date set!!!

Well I have thought long and hard about this, and I have finally done something about it.
On the 20th of April, I am having surgery to remove part of my stomach. Sounds drastic, but it is an alternative to the lapband.
What they do is they cut off part of your stomach, leaving you with a 200ml "pouch" which is more like a tube, thats why they call it a sleeve. There is nothing forgein inserted, just a smaller area to fill with food.

I have a friend who has had a lapband recently, she spends every meal uncomfortable because she can't get any food through her band. I won't have that problem, the food goes in, its not blocked by anything, but I can only eat 200mls worth of food, including drinking.
The only real side effect is that there may be leakage where they seal up the new side of my stomach, and that it's non-revesable. But I am not going into this looking for it to be revesable. I am not spending $6000ish to have it reversed. I have had all the blood tests, submitted the paperwork, and on the 10th I start an optifast diet. That means optifast for 10days prior, and I can have vegtables to fill myself up if I need to. Then after surgery I have optifast for 2 weeks and can move onto mush.
On the 15th I have a pre op ECG, and am admitted on the 20th at 7am.

Exciting times!!

Well its been a while. Sorry, so much for being a good blogger, good intentions and all that.

Since I was on here last I have been on a P&O cruise to Vanuatu Lifu and Nouemea, and I have also been to the dr about a referral to see a lapband doctor. My appointment is on Monday to see him.

Told A that I would get the groceries on the way home, and he said won't you be in pain?

I think he thought that I just go in on Monday and its done. Umm not that easy.

Its looking like costing about $5000 out of pocket, but I figure over the years I have spent that on diets anyway, so it will be worth it. I have a friend who has lost 3o kgs in about 3 months, so I am hoping it works like that for me too!
I have done so much research into the proceedure over so many years but I have always felt too vain to do anything about it. I don't feel as heavy as the scales say, but I must be pretty heavy because my BMI is what they want it to be to go ahead with the surgery, so bring on Monday!!!!

Well today this little piggy is weighing the same as she did a few months ago when I first started really doing something, then I fell off, put on some more weight, and now I am back at the starting weight from a few months ago. Friggen story of my life! And this morning while I was weighing in, I had wet hair, so that has to count for some grams surely!!??

This weekend we are off to the races, Sarah is staying with mum and A is coming with me. Its with a workmate and a former workmate nd a group of their friends. Last time we went was great, so I have high hopes for this weekend. I have a fasinator, and shoes picked out, going for a pedicure today so I can show off my toes, now to chose the dress, don't have many to chose from but I have a few days to chose!

I am determined to get up my water intake, so today I will be drinking more water than yesterday! Which was none!! :P

Well today is a new day!!

Yesterday afternoon I was joking to my workmates about how today could be made perfect by someone sending me chocolate in the mail, and then I went to check the mail and there was a parcel for me from England, from a friend called Emma. It was chocolate biscuits!!! So its true what they say about putting it out to the universe!! :P So I am putting out to the universe that I want to lose weight!
I have been having shakes for breakfast/morning tea which replaces my usual danish that I buy with my coffee. So already thats one up on myself.
We are leaving on a 7 day cruise on the 7th March, and I have been using that as an excuse to put off my diet. But now I realise, I am not just going to eat like a pig because the food is buffet style. EVERY meal will be buffet, its not like its a once off, so I am determined to go and eat normally and healthily but there will be intake of many cocktails, its a pacific cruise, how could there be no cocktails!!?? There is also a gym onboard which I'd love to spend some time in, I'd love to come back fromt he holiday refreshed and ready to jump into the exercise and losing weight.

Motivation is here, hopefully to stay!!

My very first blog

Well its time for me to be accountable to someone, and that someone will be you blog!

I am not so good at writing down things I want to say, I am practised in blerting them out instead. So bare with me.

I have decided that I really need to do something about my weight. I have put it off for too long and I am sick of people taking photos over and over because I demand that they delete them if they haven't hidden my lumps and bumps, or my double chin is showing.

I am going to get an exercise bike. I have decided to ride it for 30 minutes a day, and having the bike at home I will have NO excuses.

I am really angry with myself because I have been here and done this so many times before, we are going on a cruise in 3 weeks, and I was supposed to have lost 10kg. That was my goal and I have failed :(

I have tried everything, I have done Jenny Craig, Weight watchers, Slimfast, Tony Ferguson, and all of them have had about a 10kg loss but always manage to put it and then some back on.

So this is it. I was considering Lapband, but will try this first!

Today my intake has been as follows:
2 mini cupcakes - was cleaning out the fridge!
1 coffee
4 slices of rye bread
Small tin of light tuna
Garden Salad
another coffee

So bring it on the motivation is back!!!